So I'm sure you've heard of http://www.stumbleupon.com  at some point in your life on the internet. At least I sure hope you have because if you haven't your web experience has been boring up until now so GO!

Anyway so that is what I have been doing for these past few days, stumbling through websites with the StumbleUpon toolbar. When you favorite a website it goes to your page on that website, so you can go to it later if you want.

I had a profile, my old username was Starlight791 http://www.stumbleupon.com/stumbler/starlight791/

Thats my old page. One day i decided to make a  new one because of the fact that I have a  need for a more creative username now. So I changed the email on that account (my old one) and made a new account with my main email.  My new page is here.
http://www.stumbleupon.com/stumbler/Kalystia/

So the thing that is keeping me away from Xanga is the fact that I have to stumble through all my favorite websites, which isn't boring for me in the least and favorite them all over again.  I had favorited 1.3k websites, pages, etc. When i'm done my favorites on my new page will have reached 1.8k because before i decided to stumble through all my old favorites and favorite them all over again I had favorited over 400+ new pages. So That is what is keeping me away from Xanga.

It is so addictive, and even more addictive stumbling through your own favorites all over again because they are all stuff you like.

So long story short I'll probably be busy for about 2 more days. =P

There is this teaching that buddhists follow. Being free of material and physical desire leads to true happiness. Something like that I think. Throughout my life I have come to know that is true. I haven't had very many spectacular things like clothes, furniture, clothes, etc. My family isn't the richest family in the world so we've had to make due with just the old and the little things. We live in a decent house, a lot of things are hand me downs from my grandparents, and / or neighbors we know.

My mom and dad have always had trouble with finding and keeping jobs, or sometimes the jobs can't pay them for some reason. Its been a struggle throughout my life but I've always been happy. Satisfaction has always come very easy to me, I've always been happy with what I have, not thinking about what I don't have or what I could have. It was hard a little for me when I was in my early teens  I guess a little. Watching all the girls around me wear fashionable clothes, that wore off though. I've never truly wanted any of that. My love stays with things that can be forever with me.

My family has never bought really expensive, cars, clothes, TV, computers, etc. The stuff we do buy we either get from sails, or we make them ourselves.

throughout my life I have been watching other people. I've come to realize that people like my family, people that don't really desire material things and don't rely on physical desires, people that don't care about money are a lot happier. As I go through my daily life I see countless people that lust after money, clothes, material possessions that they think will bring them happiness but in the end they always end up unsatisfied and unhappy. It seems to be that he world just wats more and more these days. We never slow down, we never think about the more beautiful things in life. Everyone should just stop and look at what is around them. There are more important things than what the world seems to be occupied with these days.

Nature, music, the friends around me are what I value most, experiences, fun times, family, stuff like that is truly important to me, the other things are just on the sidelines an are nice every once in a while.  Being able to spill out my thoughts like this to countless people, to express myself, to be myself, times like this are really special to me too, which is why I love blogging so much.

About physical desires,  I feel like we rely on them to much. this world seems to revolve around sex these days and i feel like that is causing part of our unhappiness as well. It is true that to much of a good thing can be bad and i'm sorry to say that the world these days is sorely over doing the subject of sex, we need to tone it down a lot. you can't even watch TV without getting bombarded by sexual messages and implications it seems like nothing is family safe these days. I'm sorry to all of you that must love sex and / or sexual related things but really go do something else, some of you are dwelling on it to much.  Its disgusting really.

Yeah, so mainly my message is try to live without physical, or material things once in a while, don't let the rule your life, go out and explore nature, and music, and stuff like that.

As winter sneaks upon me
its winds just blowing softly
cradling me forever in its embrace
the stars are up above me
I can hear the song of the wind
singing me its sweet lullaby

Forever never ends
time never bends or stops
winter dances for me
turning turning, passing, coming
sweet embrace, a wondrous dream
things are not as they seem they've changed

Let down your snow
cry for me and I will comfort you
your not alone, your not alone
dance for me and be free
no one loves you like i do
you're shunned but not by me.

eternity calls us, my sweet winter
this is our eternity just you and me
I can see you dancing there
twirling, turning, ever so graceful
I will embrace you so you're not alone
if you ask you can have all of me